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okay so i never did write again yesterday. it was a pretty good day. i stayed home &chilled. chris came to see me on his lunch. yaaay! i love seeing him. i always miss him a lot when he's at work. so, when it was time to bring him back to work, i dropped him off. i hung out with my friend natahsa. i get there &like, her whooole family, not really, is there. natasha's old friend trudy who really is like an old lady.. &natasha is 18 &she's hanging out with an old lady.. who is sooo annoying. i can't stand her. ughhh. anyway, it was her, trudy, natasha''s mom, her gram, and her uncle &younger sister had just left right before i got there. i saw denise, natasha's mom, as soon as i go in &i don't even recognize her at first. she's lost a lot of weight.. i'm assuming from her drug use &she was crying a lot. natasha's pepe's funeral was on friday so that is why the fam was down. i'm considered part of the family cuz natasha is my best friend. anyway, i gave her a hug. i gave gram a kiss &a hug. i feel bad. pepe was gram's ex. it was natasha's real grandfather. he died on halloween. i only met him once when natasha's mom &her boyfriend fucking retard brought him down because he was doing bad &they knew he was going to die soon. but that was sooo long ago. that was when i like, spent every day with natasha. anyway, he died on halloween, &so didn't gram's sister. halloween is such a bad day. ]: someone else i knew died on halloween but i don't remember who. my grandmother told me. idk. lol.

anywaysssss, i get there &i told natasha to get rid of the old bag. she hates it when i call her that but she really is annoying &tash knows that i don't like her. so, we went for a walk. we had to meet natasha's youngest sister. as we were walking back, we see a guy named carl that all of us know except tasha's youngest sister, meagan. so she tells trudy to go hang out with him because she was doing stuff with her sister, like shopping cuz at the funeral all of the sisters got 75 dollars each in visa giftcards. i love those things. anyway, she went with him.

so, we get back to tasha's but first we went to d&d so i could get some breakfast, a strawberry frosted donut with sprinkles. yum yum. those are my faaave! so we get to tasha's &we see denise walking to the indian store. lol. idk the name of the store. i've always called it that. so asked meagan with walk with her so she can bring stuff back for gram because she was gunna buy iit then give the stuff to meg to bring to gram &denise was just gunna keep walking. me &tash knew what she was going to do. go get high on crack &drink. she always does that shit when she's depressed &it's no good for her at all. then we get to gram's. natasha tells gram that we're going shopping, then we leave.we got in the car &went for a smoke ride first. i love smoke rides. i looove weed.*** after, we went to jc pennys. so, we get there &we all look around &natasha doesn't find anything she wants &meagan had stuff she picked out but didn't even buy anything. i can't stand people that do that. haha. they'd rather just save it. fuck that. if i have 75 dollars for clothes &stuff which is what it was for, you better believe i'm spending it all. haha. so, we go to a new store next to olympia sports, quiznos, &jc pennys. it's called maurice's. i <3 it. as soon as i walked in i fell in love with everything. haha. i can't wait until chris gets paid. i can't wait to get a job so i can blow my money on clothesss! natasha bought a hat &scarf.. that's it! meagan didn't get anything but a wallet. hahahaha. they suck. i just wanted to take their visa's &buy myself shit. hahaha. sooo, i wanted to go to label shopper. we went there &i got chris a pair of calvin klein underwear. they are sexxxxy! he modeled them for me last night. [; haha. i looove him. so after we were done shopping, we went to tb because we were alll hungry &meagan bought me a gordita crunch. yummy. haha. we were gunna eat there cuz it was like, 2:45 &i didn't have to bring my sister to work cuz my aunt's boyfriend was gunna do it &chris &my grandmother didn't get out of work until 4. at like, 2:55 i get a call from my sister saying she called auntie because she told them when she called earlier she had to work at 4. well, she checked her schedule &she had to be there at 3:30 so anyway, she called auntie to tell her &myy aunt was like, "well, that's too bad. matt is sleeping." &was just a bitch about everything so she calls me &asks if i will bring her. so i told her yeah &i might be a little later because i was waiting for food. which the wait seemed like forever. natasha &meagan went with me so it was good. we got our food a little after three, so i had to speed to hoosick falls. i fucking get there, &matt is sitting outside (my aunt's boyfriend). i was soo pissed. i went over &talked to him &saw the baby. he cried of course. haha. so i go inside &i go upstairs &dem is apologizing for having me come. i was like, "matt is outside". she didn't even fucking know! my aunt is a bitch. my grandmother has no money for gas &that was a waste of gas for me. so, they left cuz she ended up riding with matt. me, natasha, &meagan went over to the big moose since i live right next door to it. lol. &peter winchester is working. natasha used to like him, &he's dating &fucking this girl named whitney, who used to date a kid named peter noble, who natasha is fucking. hahahaha. it's too funny. meagan bought me candy. haha, a laffy taffy. a huuuge one. so we go there &make fun of him then leave. on the way home, we smoke her last bp. i love her uncle shane's weed. it's amaaaazing.so, by the time i get back into bennington, it's time to pick up my gram &chris. yeah, my grandmother was not too happy with my aunt. she's such a bitch sometimes. she's such an alcoholic, she thinks everyone is out to ruin her life. her kids come here on the weekends because she can't handle them. that is why she drinks. she doesn't even know how to take care of them. she sits at home allll day. won't get a job. matt does all the working. she's lazy. her kids don't want her to drink because they know how she was when sober, &they miss their real mom. anyway, when she drinks she is so hard on the kids. she makes them do housework while she sits. the kids have to clean the bathroom do the dishes sweep all the time. stuff she is supposed to be doing. i mean a couple chores is fine for kids their ages but she makes them clean everything. i feel so bad for them. i wish they could live with us cuz i know how to handle them &take care of them. ugh, talking about this pisses me off.not too long ago, chris &i went to smoker's den &got two magazines. one was high times &the other was a playboy with marge simpson on the cover. it's a collectible's edition. my grandfather is obscessed with the simpsons. i got it just for him. [: he was happy.


***high times is a magazine that talks all about weed &some other things. i was reading it &i think they should just legalize marajuana. drinking is soo much worse than marajuana. pkus, sooo many people go. if the government takes over the drug dealers &you know start growing &selling weed, it could become a nice trade. it is harmless. it can't cause cancer. it is SCIENTIFICALLY proven that weed doesn't cause cancer. when you smoke it, it doesn't harm you at all. you may lose brain cells, but they come back, that is ALSO scientifically proven. this country could make a nice profit legalizing marajuana. i think obama should do it. he's admitted smoking it before. he said the way to legalize it is the people that want it legalized need to have a vote &then give it to their state officials &when states for yes outnumber the no states, obama said he'll legalize it. he said it's all on the people. he doesn't see this as a big issue so that is why he said it's on the people. i agree with him. i just think weed should be legalized.

okay, enough rambling. chris is going to be on lunch soon to see me. [: i'm excited. i miss him. last night, we were hanging out in the room. he was playing video games &i wanted attention. so we lay down &cuddled, &we ended up falling asleep. hahaha. we woke back up at 12:30 am. we got into pajamas & shut everything off &just went to bed. lol. we woke up pretty early too. [: chris had to work at 9. he won't get out until 5:30 which is fucking gay. at least he has tomorrow off.

okay, i'll probably write more later. ♥