oo5.

okay so my halloween pretty much was okay. i didn't even do
anything really. i carved pumpkins. i hung out with my friend
natasha &megan. chris got out of work at 5. we didn't even go
to the movies which was fucking gay. i want to see paranormal
activity soo bad. anywaysss, whatever. worst halloween although
i must say i was pretty fucked up. lol. i got soo high.

chris also ended up playing video games. he is always playing
video games. i love him though. lately, i have not been able
to see him that much &it sucks cuz i just feel so distant from him
&that isn't what i want. i feel like he's not giving me the things
i need. like, when i'm upset he is always like, "i give you
everything. i treat you soo good. i do this for you &this for you."
he is always somehow turning it on me. making me apologize to
him for me being hurt &stuff &i think it's really messed up. when
he comes home on lunch today i'm going to talk to him about it
cuz it's messed up. anyway, i'm glad i got that off my chest. it
has been bugging me. i need a job. baaad. i sit at home all
the time &it's driving me crazy, making me lose my mind. haha.
i can't wait for college. it's going to be fun. then i'm going to
have a really good job. everyone ate up the halloween treats
i made. i can't post pictures yet because i can't find my camera
cord. haha. i'm so dumb for losing it. it's here somewhere though
&i will find it. i just ate cereal.. for lunch. haha. shows im lazy too.
whatever though, i have nothing better to do. i want to find more
friends on here because i need support &help. our pumpkins came
out soo good. chris did some really tricky pattern &i did like, the
easiest one. haha. whatever. they look good. especially at night.
i have pictures of those too. we get no trick-or-treaters. absolutely
none. not one. it's gay cuz i wouldn't have minded handing candy
out. i live in a gay town. haha.ah, i hope today is better.


i hope everyone had awonderful halloween.
someone had to of.
i'll write more later. i'm gunna find something to do..
maybe shower! haha. okay peaceeee.